But the crowdfunding for May rent is almost done, at least, we only have a bit more to go and then I can chilllll. I also talked with a friend for the first time on the phone today, and that was lovely.
If you’d like to help with the crowdfund for May rent, anything helps. My pay links are as follows:
Cashapp: $persephonejam
Venmo: opensorceryy
PayPal: trinrigel@gmail.com
I love y’all so much.
-Allēna
Today todayed the fuck out of me.
However, it would appear that I’ve made a little over $100 this month on Patreon and I get to take home $95 of that, and there are still a few days left to go in April, so that’s badass. One of the videos I made promoting it has started blowing up, predictably. The haters are very mad.
The remaining thirty minutes of today are cancelled, however. I’m going the fuck to sleep. Goodnight, all.
-Allēna
but neither of the hosts called me to perform. I was there for about 3 hours. The event started 45 minutes late as well. I left at 9:57ish, three minutes before the event was scheduled to end, and they hadn’t called the second feature yet. I’m not sure if it was intentional, if they couldn’t read my handwriting on the open mic list, if they were just running super behind, or what, but I didn’t feel well either, so I left at 9:57ish and headed home.
I’m so tired, y’all..
-Allēna
Also, fuck the sun. I almost fainted. At least we have cool air in the apartment now.
-Allēna
(for me, anyway).
I’m processing a lot and my brain feels so overtaxed that it’s a struggle to think or even breathe at times. I’ve been struggling to even message Juneau, and that’s been quite easy of late. I think I’ve overworked myself into a hole.
So I’m going to have a leisurely smoke and then I think I’m going to attempt sleep.
G’night, y’all.
If y’all want to help me feel less overtaxed, please check out my Patreon. It would be a huge help. 💛
-Allēna
Between a bunch of phone calls and DMs and getting sunsick this past weekend, including yet another phone call to get my benefits sorted because my representative has been AWOL for over a month now, I sort of went into turtly hermit mode and watched Smosh for most of the afternoon. It was nice.
-Allēna
But I got a lot of shit done today. Soooo many videos and other stuff. I also crashed for several hours and it’s 3 AM. Now I am awake and idfk what to do.
-Allēna
I think I – as well as my system as a whole – approach making art the same way that jazz musicians play music. I was thinking about this because the piece I ended up writing today in group pulled heavily from “My Island” and yet putting an entirely different spin on it, and it got me thinking about all of the different times that I’ve done that while making music especially.
And honestly, if I had to sum up my approach to just about everything in life, I would say that I approach most of my crafts like a jazz musician even though I don’t technically play jazz. I don’t believe in just one final product or making a recording or a piece the be all, end all. A single song can inspire me for over ten years and I’ll keep coming back to it lyrically, musically, poetically, even, in a sort of self-referential game of call and response, making something new with each iteration and reexamination.
In the process, I’m building a recursive universe the longer I make content and art.
I fucking love jazz.
-Allēna
Today, that was getting sunsick. Emerson and I went to a bookshop downtown after our original plans fell through, and I got…kind of irradiated making a video while I was waiting for him to finish up inside.
I have to be awake at 10 AM tomorrow for writer’s group and I did not nap today like a fool.
Pray for me, if you’re into that. If you’re not, send me good energy, I guess.
I need to shut my eyes now. I am so, so tired..
-Allēna