Emerson has surgery in a couple of hours, so I am probably going to try to get some sleep, if I am able, then see him off if I can wake up for it.
I had a great time facilitating Better Together, though. I gave everyone a prompt about coded language in poetry and everyone took it in WILDLY different directions. It was great.
-Allēna
I have a lot of feelings about this update and I could probably gush about this for ages but for now, I’m going to leave it at that.
-Allēna
This one is for an extended seizure study/test. It should last about 5 days. It will be the second longest we’ve been apart and the only time we’ve been apart since getting married. I’m worried about him and also about being alone this long. I’ve had an exhausting day so far and it hasn’t even been a full day alone..
I am going to try to go to sleep now so that whatever things tomorrow brings hopefully don’t exhaust me as much. That’s the hope, anyway.
-Allēna
There’s a certain song on my YouTube Music likes that brings back a ten ton brickload of memories every time I hear it. “Hits Me Like A Rock” by CSS takes me straight back to August of 2017 every fucking time I hear it.
I don’t quite remember how I came across it exactly, but I do remember that it was via Spotify somehow around the same time I entered into my first T4T relationship shortly after my 20th birthday and the total eclipse of the sun on August 21 of that year. I remember listening to it incessantly while I wrote what I later called the August Draft of the Third Prophecy along with Brazilian Girls’ cover of “Whip It” by Devo. I think I listened to both of those of those fucking songs they’re stamped into my viscera somehow. I was only with that girl briefly, but she fucking loved the Third Prophecy and was a phenomenal kisser, and she ended up inspiring a solid third of our 2017 album Mago. I hope she’s doing well.
What a month. What a time.
-Allēna
Based on the EEG and observations, the seizures look nonepileptic, but we’re getting an MRI on the 28th just in case and to establish a new baseline on the Brainhole anyway. The poor, sweet doctor was taken aback when I attempted to describe the differences in feeling between the right and left sides of my body. I don’t think he’d seen anything like it yet.
Overall things went pretty well. He also suggested keeping a headache diary, so if I have a bad headache that day, I’ll do my best to write it down here, as well as what I think the trigger is.
-Allēna
I took an accidental nap this evening after Emerson and I got back from Barnes and Noble. We did a version of the Icelandic tradition Christmas Book Flood yesterday and it was delightful. I got him a book called Someone To Build a Nest In and he got me a lovely illustrated copy of Frankenstein. After the nap we finally watched the Wrinkle in Time movie. It came out before I was married the first time, and I had always heard it was a flop. I don’t think it was, it was relatively true to the spirit of the book, even if it took some liberties. Chris Pine was delightful in it.
Merry Christmas if you celebrate, as well!
-Allēna
And I feel like if I move my knee wrong, I won’t be able to walk on my right leg. This winter has aggravated my joints a great deal but this… It feels…bad…
-Allēna
I also ate at Red Robin for the first time ever (and ate farrrrr too many fries) and convinced him to try reading Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi. It’s been a good day. I am tired now, though..
-Allēna