If this goes well, I want to do it again. I think I’m going to put it together regardless, though.
-Allēna
Excellence and batshittery, done on purpose.
I’m Lazarus. I make art, music, poems, plays, and magic for the quiet, brilliant, broken ones. If that is you, welcome home. I adopt your kind.
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If this goes well, I want to do it again. I think I’m going to put it together regardless, though.
-Allēna
Ironically, I had to miss an epilepsy themed open mic because of it. Still no results that I can see. -Allēna
Ow ow ow. My brainhole has been strobed 😭😭 but my results should come in tomorrow or soon afterwards.
-Allēna
Best sleep I’ve gotten in a bit.
Fuck yeah!
-Allēna
I am a sorceress, twice in exile –
they claim my magic is merely madness, but
those with the eyes to see know better
I am the voiceless breaker of curses, until now
bearer of grief no one knows about
I am no one’s prisoner anymore
to know myself is to know my power
to know myself is the key to my freedom
I have all that I need
there is an embarrassment of riches in my heart
and though you may not like what you see
you might be shocked by it
terrified by it
I have looked within so I can look without
I see you for all that you are now
and you hold no charm for me
I am made of night and waves and song
water and air, wrath and lightning
while you are made of nothingness
I do not need you, you need me
you will no longer have my pain
so here I go, I’ve broken my chains
and the ties that bind me
and I take my first steps into the dawn and
the red world
~”the sorceress”, after breaking the vicious circle by remedios varo, written by Allēna 11/9/2025

I also ate at Red Robin for the first time ever (and ate farrrrr too many fries) and convinced him to try reading Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi. It’s been a good day. I am tired now, though..
-Allēna
I haven’t done much except watch some TV, easy a fucccckkkkload of cheese, and sleep a lot.
I’m up for now but I’m not sure how long that will last.
-Allēna
I’m very tired but I at least got some pants from the LGBT center lol.
Time to rest I think?
-Allēna