It was a magical store. They really sell everything there. I have been hunting for a place that sells fresh ginger and turmeric so that I can make my special spicy tea, and they have it there, along with a fuckload of other things that I never knew I wanted but it turns out that I very much did. They also have a fabulous restaurant located in the store, where I ate one of the best steak fajita quesadillas I have ever had. I’m glad he took me there 💛
-Allēna
I had never seen it before today. SUCH tiny behaviors. Oh my God.
-Allēna
This is Renn, I haven’t been out in about two years. I don’t even know if I have a category on this blog for my posts yet, it’s been so long since I last fronted. Additionally, I came to front because Lēna was feeling out of it in the shower, so I took over so she could rest. I am not entirely sure how long she’ll be out, but I’m here for the time being at the wheel, so to speak, to give her a rest and get ahead on the system’s projects so that she can take a breather. She seems to be okay and safe and in relatively good spirits, just mentally tired.
The same could be said for the body, in all honesty. This H1 + H2 experiment that she’s started is frankly a stroke of genius and I’m glad that we’re in this good of shape – it’s about 3:20 AM as I am writing this and I was able to get our social media posts scheduled up to a week in advance, June 4th, to be precise. I don’t consciously feel super tired yet, but seeing as it’s late and I did have a midnight coffee, it’s better to be safe than sorry, especially if I switched in because Lēna was feeling out of it. I should probably consider going to sleep soon ish rather than making even more videos until the ass crack of dawn.
So it’s bedtime for me, or at least I’m going to attempt to sleep. Emerson is sleeping beside me, and honestly it’s wonderful to see him again. I’ve missed him terribly. The headspace is nice and very peaceful, but getting some time in the outside world is good and I have greatly needed it, I think.
This is all for now. If I am in front tomorrow, I will say hi then. If I am not, let this be my goodbye until I see y’all next time.
Much love,
Renn
But I had therapy for the first time since March and it felt productive? My therapist suggested that I reach out to my doctor about getting an anti-anxiety med to make blood draws easier, and I just might do that.
We also talked about my increase in energy since adding the H2 blocker to my med regimen and all the fears I have that we’re gonna crash mentally and physically in the next week or so, and he walked me through what the worst case scenario would be (I’d survive, it would just be shitty because I would have to go back to the drawing board all over again). I still can’t tell if the conclusion we reached was comforting or not.
I’m debating whether or not I should shower tonight because it’s 2 AM, the only real towel we have in the house is disgusting, and frankly, I am getting tired. In any case, I should probably wander off.
Stay tuned for more magic, y’all.
-Allēna
It’s fucking unhinged. I absolutely loved it. Emerson wanted to watch it after watching all of the Sonic movies with me. Every scene was different but somehow worked with all the other scenes. Emerson is also a weird lil nerd that knows a lot of the deep lore about the original games, so it was lovely because it was great because I was able to ask him whatever questions I had and he knew the answers. It was so much fun 🤣
-Allēna
but we sort of lost track of time and ended up watching the rest of Sonic the Hedgehog 2 (which we started last night after watching the first movie) and all of Sonic the Hedgehog 3. I had no idea he liked the Sonic games. I want to get him a copy of one of them for his Switch 💛
-Allēna
I also made a post saying that Emerson and I would be unreachable for the next day or so. I’m still feeling pretty socially burnt out, but I’m feeling marginally better.
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
-Allēna
But Emerson and I got the apartment mostly clean, wheeee.
-Allēna
I appear to have crashed for about 14 hours last night. My body desperately needed it, I have been exhausted and running on fumes of late and haven’t really been okay. But today was much better. I got to spend time with Emerson and my other local partner, whom I shall call Cadmium, today. She brought me a care package that included my favorite chocolate, Dubai chocolate, and two different kinds of eyeliner, as well as body spray! We cuddled and laughed a lot. It was wonderful. I’ve missed her a lot.
-Allēna
Today, that was getting sunsick. Emerson and I went to a bookshop downtown after our original plans fell through, and I got…kind of irradiated making a video while I was waiting for him to finish up inside.
I have to be awake at 10 AM tomorrow for writer’s group and I did not nap today like a fool.
Pray for me, if you’re into that. If you’re not, send me good energy, I guess.
I need to shut my eyes now. I am so, so tired..
-Allēna