I did, however, manage to do another pay what you can tarot reading and see my dear suitor, Austen, who I’ve mentioned here before. They are Emerson’s dear friend of 20+ years. It was a good day, albeit very tiring. Then I passed out for a couple of hours once I got home.
-Allēna
you asked me once
suspended over a chasm of grief
why I loved you
I couldn't string the words around you to tell you then
so I shall attempt to tell you now
you are a lavender field
earth still wet from spring rain
and loving you is learning to dance again
hair still wet through the rows of flowers on
these crippled legs
no matter how long it takes to get the steps right
no matter how long it takes to move without falling
you are a game of chance
and loving you is taking the tenderest risk I've
ever known
loving you is lilac, pale blue, and gold like the
subtle ring around your irises when you look at
me
loving you is slow mornings and evenings that
always seem to go too fast
loving you is enough memories to fill a Martian
year and enough emotion to fill an entire planet
loving you is savoring 1001 days and nights
for all they're worth and never, ever taking each
other for granted
loving you is allowing myself to be broken open
and reborn, again and again
loving you is allowing you to do the same
and loving you is meeting the people you love
(because it's never just been us against
this crazy world)
and finding that I trust you even more after doing
so because they're some of the finest people
I've ever known
you are multiverses
you are adventure
you are passion and fire
you are the ripple of time dancing
you are everything and nothing at once
loving you is learning to hold all of that
in a single touch (and God does it feel so good)
I bet everything I had and then some on you
because the moment I saw you, I knew I was
yours
and I would fucking do it again in a heartbeat
that is why I love you.
-Allēna 12/1/2025
I got a self love kit and he got an art print. We also spent 3 or so hours in a laundromat in the snow, but it was SO worth it. -Allēna
I’ve missed y’all. Not much has happened today, but honestly, that’s probably a good thing. Zelda vague posted some dumb shit on Facebook about “being stupid” and “following their heart rather than their head” and Lēna and Emerson commented on the post calling them out for cheating and then posted the entire salvo in a separate post 🤣 Zelda blocked both of them as well as everyone else who flocked to their post to give them a piece of their mind. I think it’s safe to say that they are NOT having a good day. Honestly, after the shit they pulled, good.
Emerson went to the Sunday writer’s workshop, and I felt out of place, but I wanted to see what it was all about. It was fun, semi disorientation aside.
Then we came home and began a rewatch of Bridgerton for the hell of it. I’m still watching, but Emerson is napping. I’m not certain what else will happen tonight, but I’m sure it’ll be juicy. Ehehe.
-Lazarus
I also ate at Red Robin for the first time ever (and ate farrrrr too many fries) and convinced him to try reading Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi. It’s been a good day. I am tired now, though..
-Allēna
I’m very tired but I at least got some pants from the LGBT center lol.
Time to rest I think?
-Allēna
Emerson did my nails today while we watched the Usual Suspects.
That’s it.
That’s the post.
-Allēna
I went to ZAOfest at ZaoMKE with Emerson today and sold NUMEROUS COPIES of our Insomnia Poetry TTRPG. My brain is tired, though, so I must crashhhhhhhh.
-Allēna
Emerson is home from work taking a mental health day, and we hung out and watched the reboot of Good Eats. I’ve also been asleep for most of the day. I’m appreciating how slow it is today. More later, possibly??
-Allēna
