write something
anything
there’s cerebral spinal fluid
where some of my
brain used to be
and it’s one of the many
possible scapegoats
to blame
for why i am like this
humor me for a moment
picture a house with a single
flap for receiving letters
one letter enters
you don’t want the letter
you set it on fire
(but they’re like a hydra)
(the more letters you burn)
(the more come pouring in)
so you get more letters
and burn them
until you are suffocating
in them
my brain did that a decade ago
i remember the very first thought
it found a girl beautiful
and the panic set in
the letters poured in
and i drowned in thoughts like paper
the mind full of paper has become
the paper mind
people and places like wind
blow through it and blow it open
write something
anything
do not burn this paper mind
though you can do so quickly
quickly
quickly
still
-Allēna