Category: Allēna’s Posts

It’s called “the denouement”. It’s about Zelda.

13 years 
13 years
I peered through the bars of
your wintry love into the flame 
and I saw the future 
laying on the kitchen floor in 2022 -

13 years 
13 years and decreasing - 
I declared to you 
that you'd see the end of it all
but not much more 

11 years
10 
you fancy yourself inimitable 
invincible 
sophomoric survivor 
but you drink your rage and heartbreak 

9 years 
9 years 
I know the signs of alcohol poisoning from 
watching my first husband 
watching my father

8 years –
you terrified me the first time 
scarcely a week in

7 years 
and you cheated the first time when
we’d barely been together for two months
I thought I could finally rest
fucking fool was I

6 years 
6 years left 
I watch you try to outrun your demons 
again 
again 
again 
but they've always been faster
or perhaps you've always loved them more 
than you could ever love me

5 years 
4 years 
and I watch the tests roll in 
I know how it goes 
first the heart
then the kidneys 
then the liver
then the rest
then the cash out, the flare out
alone

when you are spent
who will be there to catch you
except the bottom of the bottle? 

-Allēna