Tag: neuroqueer

  • This prompt is interesting.

    Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?

    In person socializing, mostly, unless you’re one of about five people on a very good day.

    Alongside that, we seem to be slowly losing the ability to speak aloud due to burnout and fatigue. It’s just… Not something we want to do much anymore. We would rather do shit than talk about it. Idk.

    -Lazarus

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  • Valentine’s Day Thoughts

    In all honesty, I never really think about that holiday??

    My sweet Danish partner reminded me it existed today and I told him that due to my time blindness I’m likely to find myself in a situation out of a sitcom where someone who has a crush on me invites me over or something, I have no fucking clue what day it is, everyone else gets extremely upset with me, and I just end up rolling with it and they confess their love for me with flowers and chocolate and I’m like “I’m so sorry… what year is it again” 😭

    I’ve forgotten my own birthday before. I’m not fucking kidding. I tend to forget Valentine’s Day exists especially hard because I wasn’t exactly…. Desirable until well into adulthood, and even now it’s still a mindfuck to me that people want to date me at all? So wheee. AuDHD is a helluva thing.

    -Allēna

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  • The Art of Bitching

    Well, this is an interesting prompt.

    What do you complain about the most?

    I tend to complain a lot about anything that’s difficult or exhausting for me while in the process of doing it. It helps me bypass my executive dysfunction and my deeply rooted perfectionism, which often makes it damn near physically painful to get out of my blanket lump, so cussing about having to do the task makes the task doable.

    It’s one of the joys I have discovered in adulthood, as when I was a child and teen, I was often made to do things without showing a hint of displeasure. My parents insisted that I did everything they wanted “with a cheerful heart”. So I often did, but gave them hell the rest of the time and would find ways to maliciously comply with that rule while doing the task. They learned pretty early that the only way to get me to do anything that I didn’t really give a shit about well was to pay me a king’s ransom 🤣. But now that I am away from them and better for it, I bitch about damn near everything that I have to do that doesn’t involve being cocooned in a blanket lump while in the process of getting shit done.

    I don’t mind being productive, for the record. I actually quite enjoy it. It just hurts a lot of the time. Bitching about the task at hand gets me to start the process of being productive, and I highly recommend it.

    How do y’all get shit done?

    -Allēna

  • New section of headspace dropped.

    Due to boredom and longing, I have crafted a maximalist listening room in headspace where I can put my favorite music on and tune this utter bathroom of a world out. One of us may attempt to draw it later. My fucking hell woman of a headmate has invaded it since I’m in front and is now literally chopping up several cassette tapes in there. She says she’s “making magic”, but I’m scared, frankly.

    Whoever let Allēna have access to music production knowledge in the first place has no idea what they unleashed upon this world and should be blocked immediately.

    Anyway, I have things to do. We’ll see what accursed things this woman concocts…

    -Lazarus

  • For once I don’t want to bullshit this prompt.

    What would you do if you won the lottery?

    If I won the lottery, I would buy a big ass plot of land (a square mile plus) in the middle of nowhere – not gonna tell you hooligans where because this is the fucking Internet and people are weird – and start a neuroqueer commune complete with a live tracking studio mostly filled with analog gear šŸ˜ and I would use the remaining funds to fill people’s GoFundMes and start SEVERAL businesses I’ve been meaning to start, lol.

    I have plans….

    -Allēna

  • Dear Internet Diary,

    I need a shower but my damn brain is not letting me do it. Instead, it is insisting that I do every damn thing else and taking me on infinite side quests.

    Help.

    Sincerely,

    -Lazarus

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  • Can you contact me in a timely manner? Sources say no.

    The above post is silly but 100% accurate. I’m known for forgetting apps exist, and audible notifications literally jumpscare me.

    Your best hope to reach me in a timely manner is to astral project into my dreams. 🤣

    My partners can confirm that.

    -Allēna

  • Object impermanence for the win…

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    There was something I was going to post

    Mood. I do this constantly.Ā 

    -AllēnaĀ