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Tag: actually AuDHD

  • Newsflash, abled, allegedly neurotypical fuckshits,

    Tylenol doesn’t cause autism.
    Nor do vaccines.
    Neurodivergent people having hot, wild sex does, and GUESS WHAT, fucknugget, if you have an autistic kid, you or someone in your family is probably autistic and you’re projecting your fear and shame and eugenicist bullshit onto them. Your kid doesn’t deserve that.
    Pregnant people deserve comfort and choices.
    Bodies shouldn’t be political battlegrounds. Period.

    Do y’all really hate disabled people so fucking much that you’d rather your kid suffer from easily preventable disease and risk becoming – guess what – disabled than have them be autistic because you heard about a study that’s long since been proven false?

    If you do, you probably shouldn’t be a parent at all, because you’re exactly the sort of slimy motherfucker who will end up being your kid’s first bully if they end up being any sort of different from the perfect little reflection of you you have in mind. From the bottom of my heart and with the entire force of my crippled, neurodivergent ass, fuck you.

    Sincerely,

    -Lazarus

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  • I made this last night.

    It’s based off of my poem “the light spinner”.

    “the light spinner” is available in full here.

    -Allēna

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  • This prompt is interesting.

    Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?

    In person socializing, mostly, unless you’re one of about five people on a very good day.

    Alongside that, we seem to be slowly losing the ability to speak aloud due to burnout and fatigue. It’s just… Not something we want to do much anymore. We would rather do shit than talk about it. Idk.

    -Lazarus

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  • Valentine’s Day Thoughts

    In all honesty, I never really think about that holiday??

    My sweet Danish partner reminded me it existed today and I told him that due to my time blindness I’m likely to find myself in a situation out of a sitcom where someone who has a crush on me invites me over or something, I have no fucking clue what day it is, everyone else gets extremely upset with me, and I just end up rolling with it and they confess their love for me with flowers and chocolate and I’m like “I’m so sorry… what year is it again” 😭

    I’ve forgotten my own birthday before. I’m not fucking kidding. I tend to forget Valentine’s Day exists especially hard because I wasn’t exactly…. Desirable until well into adulthood, and even now it’s still a mindfuck to me that people want to date me at all? So wheee. AuDHD is a helluva thing.

    -Allēna

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  • The Art of Bitching

    Well, this is an interesting prompt.

    What do you complain about the most?

    I tend to complain a lot about anything that’s difficult or exhausting for me while in the process of doing it. It helps me bypass my executive dysfunction and my deeply rooted perfectionism, which often makes it damn near physically painful to get out of my blanket lump, so cussing about having to do the task makes the task doable.

    It’s one of the joys I have discovered in adulthood, as when I was a child and teen, I was often made to do things without showing a hint of displeasure. My parents insisted that I did everything they wanted “with a cheerful heart”. So I often did, but gave them hell the rest of the time and would find ways to maliciously comply with that rule while doing the task. They learned pretty early that the only way to get me to do anything that I didn’t really give a shit about well was to pay me a king’s ransom 🤣. But now that I am away from them and better for it, I bitch about damn near everything that I have to do that doesn’t involve being cocooned in a blanket lump while in the process of getting shit done.

    I don’t mind being productive, for the record. I actually quite enjoy it. It just hurts a lot of the time. Bitching about the task at hand gets me to start the process of being productive, and I highly recommend it.

    How do y’all get shit done?

    -Allēna

  • Dear Internet Diary,

    I need a shower but my damn brain is not letting me do it. Instead, it is insisting that I do every damn thing else and taking me on infinite side quests.

    Help.

    Sincerely,

    -Lazarus

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  • Can you contact me in a timely manner? Sources say no.

    The above post is silly but 100% accurate. I’m known for forgetting apps exist, and audible notifications literally jumpscare me.

    Your best hope to reach me in a timely manner is to astral project into my dreams. 🤣

    My partners can confirm that.

    -Allēna

  • Object impermanence for the win…

    Reblog via mcc

    There was something I was going to post

    Mood. I do this constantly. 

    -Allēna 

  • And the rabbit hole deepens…

    Because I have discovered Bridgy Fed and through it, the IndieWeb. Jesus, this takes me back down memory lane to when Castor was blogging to approximately 2004ish. I kinda love it??

    AuDHD brain and hypercategorization for the win.

    I love breaking out of walled gardens.

    -Allēna

  • A message to anyone learning a new skill:

    From Tumblr user mushroomcaphat.

    This doesn’t just apply to cooking.

    Xavier used to always tell me before he died that you have to learn the rules to anything before you can break them. And this man was a certifiable genius across the board – brilliant cook, chaos programmer, astonishing writer, ruthless editor. I swear he did everything by his intuition, too, but only after learning the rules of a skill enough to break them.

    Damn near everything I can do, I first learned to do from watching that contrarian bitch of a man do life. He was a wonderful, terrible, grumpy, hilarious, Renaissance master of multidisciplinary batshittery, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. And I had to fail my way forward first until I found a way to do things that worked for me.

    And I will never stop learning about everything I can get my eternally bored hands on, learning rules, breaking them creatively, rinsing, repeating, and having a whole lot of fun while I do.

    So please, experiment, fail your way forward, break new ground. This is how you learn and find ways to do things that work for you. But also learn from the masters. There’s nuance in everything. You don’t have to reinvent the wheel.

    Happy learning, and stay curious!

    -Allēna

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