Tag: NEISvoid

  • Regarding boredom..

    These prompts, have been going OFF lately. Here’s today’s.

    What bores you?

    Well, I am an AuDHDer, so, in short… Pretty much everything after a point, fortunately or unfortunately. My brain is hardwired for two things, as best I can determine, and those things are patterns and novelty, such that after I get used to something, I can tune it out. It can, in every meaningful way, cease to exist to me.

    That skill has served me very well during situations where I was being actively abused – I would memorize my abusers to such a degree that I could work around them and they’d be all but nonexistent to me. In situations where I actually give a shit but things are just moving too damn slowly for my brain that processes shit at roughly the speed of the manhole we accidentally launched into space, it’s a helluva curse and I would rather die than be stuck in whatever situation I’m in waiting. Patience is not my strong suit. So I tend to live in my head a lot to pass the time.

    The one consistent exception to this is when something pisses me the fuck off. Then it’s eternally interesting and it’ll get stuck in my head until I solve it. I cannot count the number of special interests I’ve gotten into because someone told me I couldn’t ever do them.

    I am a contrarian little bitch who finds ways or fucking makes them…

    -Allēna

  • Y’all, I’m tired.

    I’ve been doing medical research all day.

    So it’s time for me to just come out and say something.

    I want a snake. A pet snake.

    There. I said it.

    -Allēna

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  • What’s this? Another prompt I want to actually take somewhat seriously?

    Who are your favorite people to be around?

    People who are straightforward, honest, and the only bullshit they give me is the joking kind. Preferably, they can see shit about me that I can’t, and can do shit that I can’t without making me feel like shit for it. They don’t talk my ear off constantly about meaningless shit and believe that words have as much power as actions and use both in tandem.

    I’m very picky about the people I surround myself with, and it’s a high bar because I have made peace with solitude most days, being mostly housebound and all, to the point where if I prefer being alone more than I enjoy spending time with a person, I simply won’t engage with them if I don’t have to. I am too tired and have too much shit to do (as well as people I actually like) to pay the people I dislike much mind. My energy is precious and I don’t have much of it. So I do my best to use it wisely. My favorite people get that and go to great lengths to help me protect the little energy I have.

    I’m not proud of a lot of the way my life has gone, and there’s a lot that happened that’s entirely outside of my control. However, I’m damn proud of the fact that I picked great people.

    -Allēna

  • This sounds like the beginning of a bad joke, but…

    Guess who has 1.33 functioning hands, just woke up, rolled over, and Googled “how to win a Pulitzer” and is now probably going back to sleep now that she understands the submission procedure?

    This bitch ✨

    I’m so tired despite taking my head honcho migraine meds when I finally collapsed at about 3:30 this morning , but hey… At least I know how to (possibly) win a Pulitzer now 🤣

    -Allēna

  • I appear to have mistaken my spoons for my fucks again.

    I have no spoons, but all the fucks to give. This calls for another nap… 😭💤😴

    #NEISvoid #chronicfatigue #MECFS #naptime #eepy

    -Lazarus

  • Shout out to the fact that it’s currently -5 degrees Fahrenheit outside.

    And by that, I mean, STOP BEING SO COLD! MY BODY CANNOT HANDLE THIS!!

    FUCK YOU, ARCTIC BLASTTTT

    #NEISvoid #jointpain #chronicpain

    -Allēna

  • Our brainhole is just one big hall of mirrors sometimes.

    #strokesurvivor #didsystem #NEISvoid #chronicfatigue #eepy

    -Allēna

  • Strange midnight-thirty acrostic thing about writing music in a hellscape.

    #NEISvoid #chronicfatigue #MECFS #poetry #songwriting #wordvomit #spilledink

    -Allēna

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  • My kingdom for a functional braincell…

    I’ve been asleep for most of the day so far (2:30 AM-11AM) and have consumed caffeine along with all my meds and am still so damned tired.

    Naptime pt 2, I guess?? #chronicfatigue #MECFS # NEISvoid #eepy -Allēna (I think)