Open Sorcery
Open Sorcery is the world of Lazarus Halliwell.
Hi! Welcome to my corner of the Internet. My name is Lazarus. I created this site to give myself a bit more freedom from the constraints of social media, where I often feel pressured to be just one thing and to say things a certain way. I’m not just one thing, and my means of self expression are all over the place. I’m an intuitive artist, magic user, playwright, singer/songwriter, actor, avid student of all kinds, reader of oracle cards and the Tarot, producer and audio engineer, novelist, and poet, to name a few of my interests. I’m also disabled and largely housebound, and am a DID system of 1500+ alters. Stay tuned for content of all kinds.
Please note that, with rare exceptions, any and all names mentioned in this blog are pseudonyms except our own. We want to be able to speak freely without doxxing anyone.
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I woke up and I had to type this out before I lost it.
I look at the fireworks show that has become of my life and call each spark and sparklesomething different, divorced from meas if I were watching the show on a field on the 4th of July and it isn’t my own life that keeps exploding – ~this came to me in a dream -Allēna 3/19/2026
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I had a great date today.
It turns out that the set of keys Emerson made for me didn’t work and he was at school, so my partner and I just chilled out inside and ordered in. She made me laugh so hard at one point that I had a coughing fit and saw stars 🤣 It was a wonderful time…
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Mk and I are going to be doing another joint reading!
This time it will be in my Discord server, the opensorceryy club. It’s on March 31 at 8PM and I hope I see y’all there 💛 mk will be reading selections from its recently published chapbook, Different With Him, and I will be reading some very queer pieces from my most recent zine, Fear Not…
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I performed “thirsty ghost” tonight at Linneman’s.
-Allēna
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“thirsty ghost”
you lived thirstyyou wanted to set yourself on fire – and in the end, you succeededin glorious, standing room only effigyplanned to the last detail as only you could do I sang at your funeral but it never quite felt like the end I carried all the crushing weight of youwhen it felt like the…
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I did this today.
I had so much fun. My hands were covered in red paint for a longggg time afterwards… -Allēna
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I’ve been so tired today.
I posted a video asking about what some guy issues I’ve been having might be being caused by, and the resounding verdict seems to be my gallbladder. So I guess that means greasy food – including the spicy Italian sandwich I got from Subway earlier – should probably be out of the question. We’ll see..…
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I think I’m starting to figure out why I’m so reserved/”cold” emotionally.
When I was a teenager, like 13-15, I was a HOPELESS romantic. I would write fully fledged, and ultimately fully produced and orchestrated songs for my crushes and create massive works of art across a variety of mediums that took months, sometimes years, to complete, at an age when most boys couldn’t be arsed to…
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I have had “Little Dark Age” by MGMT stuck in my head for the past yes.
It’s inspiring me to write more over time. I’ll keep y’all posted as more things happen. -Allēna
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Well, I caved and read the first Bridgerton book.
Frankly, I like it better than Season 1 of the show. Shonda Rhimes changed a lot, and while her choices and those of her fellow writers might make sense later on, I liked book Daphne and book Simon much better than their counterparts in the show. -Allēna