Open Sorcery
Open Sorcery is the world of Lazarus Halliwell.
Hi! Welcome to my corner of the Internet. My name is Lazarus. I created this site to give myself a bit more freedom from the constraints of social media, where I often feel pressured to be just one thing and to say things a certain way. I’m not just one thing, and my means of self expression are all over the place. I’m an intuitive artist, magic user, playwright, singer/songwriter, actor, avid student of all kinds, reader of oracle cards and the Tarot, producer and audio engineer, novelist, and poet, to name a few of my interests. I’m also disabled and largely housebound, and am a DID system of 1500+ alters. Stay tuned for content of all kinds.
Please note that, with rare exceptions, any and all names mentioned in this blog are pseudonyms except our own. We want to be able to speak freely without doxxing anyone.
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I was so tired that I fell asleep without writing yesterday.
I confess that I’ve been holding out on y’all. We got a new apartment and are moving in slowly but surely! It’s a helluva workout and very hard on both Emerson and I, but even the cats are more relaxed now. -Allēna
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“supplication”
you have taken the world that I wasand left me empty craving longingis there anything that I can use to fill the chasm on the side of the bed where you once slept I stumble home if I can even still call it that for in the taking, you took more than just yourself you…
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Emerson has introduced me to Gray’s Anatomy.
It’s suchhh a shitshow. I can’t look away. -Allēna
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Eight made this three years ago, I think.
It’s based off our song “Ten Million Nevers“, which was released in 2017. It gets more and more eerily timely with every passing year. -Allēna
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I wrote this today.
It’s called “the denouement”. It’s about Zelda. 13 years 13 yearsI peered through the bars ofyour wintry love into the flame and I saw the future laying on the kitchen floor in 2022 -13 years 13 years and decreasing – I declared to you that you’d see the end of it allbut not much more…
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Emerson and I saw the film Amadeus today at the Oriental Theater here in town.
It was honestly badass to watch it again with a great set of speakers on the big screen in such an awesome venue. 💛 -Allēna
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I had my long expected neurology appointment today.
Based on the EEG and observations, the seizures look nonepileptic, but we’re getting an MRI on the 28th just in case and to establish a new baseline on the Brainhole anyway. The poor, sweet doctor was taken aback when I attempted to describe the differences in feeling between the right and left sides of my…
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I performed at Linneman’s last night and it went phenomenally!
I was so scared before and after that my chest felt like it had been hit with a frying pan, though.. -Allēna
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I’m about to be the featured performer at Poet’s Monday tonight. I am low-key panicking. But I’m also excited.
-Allēna
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I feel like I finally made a breakthrough in my fatigue today.
I also finally finished the movie Arrival and I’m currently watching the Imitation Game. Emerson and I are taking turns with the TV every other night so we can both watch what we want to watch without one of us hogging the TV for too long. Emerson also made a take on tom kha soup…